Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Allahu Rabbi

Assalamualaikum, dear readers! ^_^

I have been posting Emily Greens for the holiday even though I'm working slowly. Sorry :(

But I don't feel like typing that story right now. I just don't feel like doing so. Even typing these words make me shiver. I've been feeling cold from last night. My fingers are like shaking around. But I think that I should post something. Yes, 'some' things.

Last night, I couldn't sleep.
Couldn't. I really couldn't sleep last night.
I fell asleep at 3 am or something.

And I tried to sleep. And I failed. And I wasn't just lying to try to sleep. I thought of lots of things. And I kept feeling not right. I thought of lots of horrible, scary things. And of course, I was scared.

As a result, I could not sleep at all.

So, I was thinking and thinking.

This lately, I've been reading about late Yasmin Hunwick. And it scares me a lot.
Together we recite al- Fatihah for her.

This 17 year old sister had an accident and died in June 2012. You can read it yourself.

Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raaji`uun.
To Allah we all belong and to Him we will return.

Thinking of her, I thought of myself.

It's true. We all belong to ALLAH. So, whenever we die, where and how had all been planned by him. No matter how old or how young we are at that time.

So, I was thinking if I was going to die.
What about my preparations for the Hereafter?
It's sad when we remember our sins and we were going to die soon.

I was totally scared. Scared I won't have enough time to repent and do good deeds.

And yes, I cried. Cried for my sins.

But yes, ALLAH is always there for those who's willing to repent. And that did calm me down.


Say, "O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah . Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful."

The Holy Quran, Surah az Zumar, verse 53. 

And I found myself asleep. And in the morning I woke up, gratefully.
ALHAMDULILLAH, Praises to Allah, Who still allows me to live on His Earth, preparing for the Hereafter.

And I keep thinking about Allah's love towards His servants. Ya Allah.
How Merciful You are and I was ashamed to seek for His forgiveness.

Allahu Rabbi.
I pray to Him so that he will keep me in the right way.
And I pray so that He will show His right way to those who's still ignorant.

Alhamdulillah. It's a pleasure to be able to write this. Feeling much better to be able to share how Forgiving ALLAH is. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful